Monday, April 7, 2008
here i am
once again
pouring out all my unhappiness...
well not all... some...
i just came back from jogging and i feel damn tired
i am suppose to feel high and invincible because of the Dophamine hormones that makes u feel good....
i threw up while jogging... thats the worst part...
my immune system has been very weak these afew weeks
i keep getting sick every 2 or 3 days.
whenever i do some tiring physical work i fell sick on the very day.
This is MADNESS
not being able to concerntrate on studies and exercise...
Saturday i attended the MAD (make a difference) in church
i watched the video called RAIN
it talks about the 'storm' that you have faced or facing...
everybody have storms in some part of their lives...
I have been facing a storm which has driven me crazy and even made me sick
you will feel hopeless and vulnurable when you faced the storm
but remember!!! GOD is always with us.
He is welcoming you with arms wide open...
why do you resist?
He will hold you in his arms and get you through the storm.
'For He has came for the sick, not the healthy'
I filpped through the Bible and i came across a chapter called ACTS
saying that there are 'trials' which are to test our faith in GOD.
and i also came across a chapter called JOB
who has been tested by satan if he has enough faith in GOD.
Job lost everything in afew days. his family, friends and properties.
in the end he shaved bald and say "He give and he take, naked i came, naked i shall be gone"
that strikes me.
i has not been spending time with GOD in past afew months
after i have lost my valuables i turned to Him again...
He is pulling me back to Him.
After i read that bible verse, i dropped my grief for my items
He will make a way for me.
this is what i believe
Dear God
this is what i, your unworthy servernt, humbly asked for
i want to be well again.
both physically and mentally
trade my sorrows and pain Lord
I pray
Amen.
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