Wednesday, March 19, 2008
The wrecked and the jaded, a place so impure in my head.
i keep recalling things that i should have left behind long time ago
grief, pain, regrets and sufferings
they came like flashes.
i closed my eyes...
once in my life i felt so vulnurable.
watching the 'forgotten' occuring again, compelled by the impure mind
once in my life i felt helpless...
ignoring the mockings of the ppl
could seem to be bothered
sometimes feeling the beating the shit out of these people,
blocked by my self conscious...
i will not be the one i used to be
i WILL NOT go back to the person i was before.
cynical, jaded and sedated....
once in awhile i put my brain in use to humour...
which is sometime brain cracking...
speaking gibberish and nonsense
i dislike (hate is a strong word.) people who try to spoil the fun
come on.. if you wanna laugh just LAUGH!!
dont act serious and say "you think its funny?" or give an cold laughter!!
having 2 different side of me is very difficult....
happy go easy type and serious type...
totally different personality in different places
that tired me....
they take advantage of me not being hot-tempered...
i go with the flow... sometime its hard
but i just give a sinister smile with a hole in my heart.
my greatest fear? someone used to ask me...
its to lose my love ones...
completion will not present if anyone of them are to be lost or gone away...
so pls dont leave... or give a cold shoulder
you all might think i dont look like that
deep inside the corner of my heart..
longing for that is me...
everyone around me are fragments of me and my life
so pls....
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