Sunday, June 29, 2008
When our time is up, when our lives are done, will we say we've had our fun?
Will we make a mark this time? Will we always say we tried...
All the love I've met, I have no regrets if it all ends now...
I'M SET!
i wanna stand on the rooftop and scream my heart out...
but they will be whisper.
hate me, i know you want to
nights
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Monday, June 23, 2008
hey people.
our 'holiday' has officially ended starting now!!!
i didn't accomplish much in this holiday. other than catching up with Diane and repair my guitars.
oh ya.. I MISS VIETNAM!!! err.. good times ~~
i will be busy for next afew months. when i mean busy i mean super duper busy... i wont be going out alot. i wont sit and stone for afew hours infront of my computer!!!
Sardine packed activities ahead! elongated school hours and self-study hours. I HAVE TO GET INTO GOOD JC!!! if not i cant continue to study in Singapore...(a country which i come to love in this 5year =D)
I've been trying to finish all the work I’ve left since the start of the holidays. The mood around here has been positively depressing and I have to start waking up before the sun is up. Boo! Back to school tomorrow, a week too early in my opinion.
i am suppose to be sleeping by now...
ang dong dong ask me to sleep early... haha.... she tried...
alright gotta sleep. so i can talk rubbish in class tomorrow (mwahahaha)
hate me, i know you want to.
nights
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Thursday, June 19, 2008
this post gonna be the most weird post ever!
i am gonna write in the language that i am not very familiar with.
and i am sure most of you all are not familiar with this language.. ok... here goes nothing...
mis dolores del corazón cuando una muchacha amó me dijeron en un muchacho que ella ama. ella y yo somos imposibles estar juntos. Ella nunca sabrá mis sentimientos en ella ... porque nunca lo dije. ella es ello me va en la relación con el muchacho ella ama ... que no quiero verla apoyar manos o abrazo con aquel muchacho delante de mí.
ódieme, sé que usted quiere a.
adios
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Tuesday, June 17, 2008
hey ppl, I am HOME!!!
yes i am.. and i am glad and sad to be back...
i am glad cos my comfy bed is waiting for me under the gasp of sunlight through the window
i am sad cos i am missing the trip already!!!
It’s difficult to get the words out now but the past afew days have been terrifyingly dramatic and intense by the hour. Let’s just say I’m glad everyone’s safe. Now that I’m back, I’m going to give myself a lazy week - i need booze and some time to lie down and not do anything.
but still, there are alot of unwanted activities which i avoided before the trip await for me with open arms... a folio to finish, subjects to catch up, A and E maths to get reunified... MAN when is this gonna end?
i wish... i just wish... that i wake up every morning with a smile on my face and praising how good the world is. birds chirping, trees swaying and friendly people... ohh what a wonderful world!!!
yahhh right! dream on... that usually happen in my dream's dream...( ok i let u digest about this for awhile).. ok moving on............... in reality i woke up every morning complaining about the people downstair making hell lot of noise even though its 7 in the morning... i put on my glumsy face and drag myself to the bath room... standing and staring at my reflection on the mirror... counting the pimples on my face.. aww man...
these afew days gonna be damn boring.. i cant wait for school to reopen.. i am just rotting to death at home... hmm someone say she like rotting.. haha. ok. making the best out of this holiday... its 3.12 am and i am still awake.. dammit..
oh ya.. i am currently listening to Faber Drive's "tongue tied" "second chance" and "when i'm with you" which is the song on my blog... and erm.. let me think what else to say.. hmmmm... oh ya.. the photos taken by Mr. Lam in the vietnam trip in on the school website...
deh... am i boring you? haha.
hate me, i know you want to.
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Saturday, June 14, 2008
hey ppl... i am still somewhere far from home...
reading thru other ppl blogposts about vietnam trip, i decided not to tell the 'story' all over again... its just make u bored... cos u'll be reading about the same thing again and again and again.. so i shall just make it short and sweet.
vietnam trip is totally awesome.
new faces, new places and new friends!!! i was being extra all along the trip.. crack jokes here and there...
i am missing Diane, Michelle(brand of my electric guitar), Fina (brand of my acoustic guitar).
sound quite wrong.. but anyway.... i'll be back in afew days...
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Thursday, June 5, 2008
The radio is blasting, and I realise it’s been a while since I listened to freetoair. Darn the mp3s and radioblogs that customises everything for you. Personalising favourites, separating all downloaded songs into genres, artists, favourites, playlists. You no longer need to wait for your favourite songs to come on air and quickly press record on the tape recorder.
Today I decide that I do not need to be in control of what I listen and what song comes next.
So i lug the trusty hifi into my room, draw the curtains, open the windows. It is sunny outside, and the green grasspatch that I see from the 4th floor is basking in the light, glowing.
I have work to do, materials to adapt, think about, brainstorm, plan, analyse. But there will always be more of these, won’t it? I take out paper, start scibbling down my ideas.The music blasts. I find it hard to control the pen. I’m not a good brainstormer, but really I realise it doesn’t matter. I just want to do my own thing. Remember who I once was, who I am, who I want to be.
And then a gem of a song plays. The heart jumps and sighs at the familiarity and spontaneous surprise.
I kind of hate/love living. It is a comedy act, with our own stage, our own spotlight. In the middle of the playact there are some dramatic moments, revelations that tend to throw you off balance. But you improvise.
I have forgotten who I am in the endless assignments and focused mission of educating. I forget myself as multifaceted. I forget how to segment time into me-time, your-time, work-time, their-time.
I am still becoming. We all are. To say identity is static is but an imposed idealised version based on history. Who I am is a fluid concept - a neverending metamorphosis - a schizophrenic (we are many things).
I need to work out more.I need to eat better.I need to cut down on the drinking.
My life doesn’t have a script. It doesn’t need one. Because the fun part comes when you improv.
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Monday, June 2, 2008
I am happy with the fatigue! Life has its sweets and sour.
why not, try tasting both! oh wait! I have tasted!
It makes me smile and cry. Well, its the world i know...
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Sunday, June 1, 2008
Has our conscience shown? Has the sweet breeze blown? Has all the kindness gone? Hope still lingers on.... I think myself of newfound pity. Sitting stoned while someone's kicking. And I dont know why.
Are we listening to hyms of offering? Have we eyes to see that love is gathering? All the words that Ive been reading, have now started the act of bleeding into ONE.
So I walk up on high and I step to the edge, to see my world below. And I laugh at myself while the tears roll down. Because it's the world I know.
the world i know, the world i know is cruel, sick and unfair. LIFE IS A LIE. we have to keep cover up things that we do for the sake of our future. "Whatever happened had happened, you cant do anything about it, MOVE ON!" thats true. Life still goes on, we continue our lies, take them to our graves, buried underground. I could not bother anything about this anymore. So I'll forgive and forget.
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nights...
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