Tuesday, April 29, 2008
This evening, on the way to the interchange for cell,
I saw a bird zooming about in the void deck.
It was flying very quickly but changing it’s direction every now and again to prevent itself from heading straight towards the grimy walls.
It had obviously lost its bearing and was frantically trying to get out of the prison walls and out into the open.
I kept wanting to tell it to “look up!” and “head towards the sunlight!” but knew my helpful attempts would be futile.
How alike are we to the birds!
And what a perfect analogy for God to remind me to always “look up” when things get confusing and perplexing.
Today, I am reminded to not look at the small incidents that do not go my way.
While staying at home on a saturday night wasn’t exactly what I had planned, I’m glad for the online catchups with Germaine and Kiana.. yay!
my pretty little prototype!
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Wednesday, April 9, 2008
i decided to blog about people who i am close to
and their common struggles.
names are changed due to privacy
Johnny wishes he was famous
spending time alone in his room
with a7x and silverstein blasting out from his stereo
An electric guitar around his torso, play well enough? not so...
while he wishes he could escape this
it all seems so contagious
not to be yourself and faceless
in a life that have no soul
but dude dont worry
i remember feeling low
i remember losing hope
i remember all the feels
and the day that all of these torments has stopped
WE ARE ALL INNOCENT
YES WE ARE, WE ARE ALL!
Mary losing faith in what she knows
hates herself and all her clothes
think of running away and leaving a suicide note
every calorie is a war
and while she wishes she was a doctor
and she had never heard of cancer (leukemia!?!)
she wishes God would give her some answer
and make her feel happy
but silly girl dont worry
i remember feeling low
i remember losing hope
i remember all the feels
and the day that all of these torments has stopped
WE ARE ALL INNOCENT!
one day, you'll have to let it go
one day, you'll have to stand up on your own
one day, you'll have to come out of the closet
one day, you'll have to face all these problems with confidence
MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU!
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Monday, April 7, 2008
here i am
once again
pouring out all my unhappiness...
well not all... some...
i just came back from jogging and i feel damn tired
i am suppose to feel high and invincible because of the Dophamine hormones that makes u feel good....
i threw up while jogging... thats the worst part...
my immune system has been very weak these afew weeks
i keep getting sick every 2 or 3 days.
whenever i do some tiring physical work i fell sick on the very day.
This is MADNESS
not being able to concerntrate on studies and exercise...
Saturday i attended the MAD (make a difference) in church
i watched the video called RAIN
it talks about the 'storm' that you have faced or facing...
everybody have storms in some part of their lives...
I have been facing a storm which has driven me crazy and even made me sick
you will feel hopeless and vulnurable when you faced the storm
but remember!!! GOD is always with us.
He is welcoming you with arms wide open...
why do you resist?
He will hold you in his arms and get you through the storm.
'For He has came for the sick, not the healthy'
I filpped through the Bible and i came across a chapter called ACTS
saying that there are 'trials' which are to test our faith in GOD.
and i also came across a chapter called JOB
who has been tested by satan if he has enough faith in GOD.
Job lost everything in afew days. his family, friends and properties.
in the end he shaved bald and say "He give and he take, naked i came, naked i shall be gone"
that strikes me.
i has not been spending time with GOD in past afew months
after i have lost my valuables i turned to Him again...
He is pulling me back to Him.
After i read that bible verse, i dropped my grief for my items
He will make a way for me.
this is what i believe
Dear God
this is what i, your unworthy servernt, humbly asked for
i want to be well again.
both physically and mentally
trade my sorrows and pain Lord
I pray
Amen.
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