Friday, March 28, 2008
i am mindlessly strumming chords on my guitar
its seems like the end
searching for a sheer sparkle of hope...
losing my items and pressure drove me to stress
stress drove me into fatigue
fatigue again drove me into sickness
i fell on my knees to pray for once in a long time
felt really helpless
body temperature hovering around 40degree celcius
kept me, covered with blankets, shivering in bed
longing to recover...
afew words of encouragements from friends makes me FEEL better
planning ahead
brainstorming how to solve these problems
1 by 1.
i hope you understand my problems
so if i offended you in anyway i wish you could forgive me
would you?
pls
Kyaw Soe Han stepped on your garbage at
Sunday, March 23, 2008
spending a day with your love one is priceless
stripping all my stress away
brighten up my day
the charms and cuteness are the secrets
the words sound as sweet as honey ( even nonsense )
the smile, the laughter
and those eyes!!! which capture
every moves you make
contacting your eyes
making me feel like i am on the top of the world
listening with emphathy to my problems
and the way she makes you forget all the stress and
makes you think all about fun
optimism lies in her
thanks!
i will always love you like my sister!
Kyaw Soe Han stepped on your garbage at
hi
i heard this song from the tv show called KYLE XY
i am so addicted to this song.
this song is in my imeem playlist
which is under 2nd cross
9th song in the list
DO LISTEN TO THE SONG!
close your eyes and LISTEN!
DONT JUST LISTEN, FEEL IT!!!
here are the lyricsSHE COULD BE YOU
I'm haunted by this photograph
Don't know why
Every time I look, I get shivers down my spine
You're such a beautiful face
I know those eyes
They take me back in time
She could be you
I wouldn't even know
She could be you
But that was long ago
She could be you
I wish that I could tell you
What you don't know
I dream about that day
But it's impossible
In another world,I'll be yours tonight
But I can't break free from this life
She could be you
I wouldn't even know
She could be you
But that was long ago
She could be you
I see it all the time
I know it's true
A picture doesn't lie
She could be you
I wouldn't even know
She could be you
But that was long ago
She could be you
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Saturday, March 22, 2008
today is a winding road
tell me where start and tell me something i dont know
today i'm on my own
i cant move a muscles and i cant pick up the phone
And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe theres a way out......
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Wednesday, March 19, 2008
The wrecked and the jaded, a place so impure in my head.
i keep recalling things that i should have left behind long time ago
grief, pain, regrets and sufferings
they came like flashes.
i closed my eyes...
once in my life i felt so vulnurable.
watching the 'forgotten' occuring again, compelled by the impure mind
once in my life i felt helpless...
ignoring the mockings of the ppl
could seem to be bothered
sometimes feeling the beating the shit out of these people,
blocked by my self conscious...
i will not be the one i used to be
i WILL NOT go back to the person i was before.
cynical, jaded and sedated....
once in awhile i put my brain in use to humour...
which is sometime brain cracking...
speaking gibberish and nonsense
i dislike (hate is a strong word.) people who try to spoil the fun
come on.. if you wanna laugh just LAUGH!!
dont act serious and say "you think its funny?" or give an cold laughter!!
having 2 different side of me is very difficult....
happy go easy type and serious type...
totally different personality in different places
that tired me....
they take advantage of me not being hot-tempered...
i go with the flow... sometime its hard
but i just give a sinister smile with a hole in my heart.
my greatest fear? someone used to ask me...
its to lose my love ones...
completion will not present if anyone of them are to be lost or gone away...
so pls dont leave... or give a cold shoulder
you all might think i dont look like that
deep inside the corner of my heart..
longing for that is me...
everyone around me are fragments of me and my life
so pls....
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Thursday, March 13, 2008
holiday????
where is my holiday?
every morning i wake up to an awefully disturbing sound of my alarm.
yes. EVERY MORNING!
even weekends i gotta wake up bloody early to study
because i am able to memorise and learn easily in the early morning...
oh ya where is my holiday???
it doesnt exist!
monday to wednesday was quite relaxing and fun cos lab works and practicals
today and tmr will be damn tiring... i spent my bloody time infront of computers for 9hrs
we went to study AUTODESK programme in SP.
my eyes are damn tired... i am bloggin with heavy eyelits...
enough of those complaints and unfavors...
look on the bright side...
lookingg........
eh wait! i cant seem to find a bloody good thing about it!
wait again... i learn something, which is totally useless for my studies......
damn i regretted signing up for the dreading, boring, long winded programme.
but we had fun... spamming in class blog and ace learning....
making fun of the lectureers and doing nonsense...
too much nonsense...
i am going crazy!!!!!
p.s *dont miss me when i'm gone*
*AND I AM NOT GIVING YOU MY BLOODY PHONE NO.*
*silly girl!!!!*
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Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Words are flying out like endless rain into a paper cup
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow waves of joy are drifting thorough my open mind
Possessing and caressing me
Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box
They tumble blindly
Sounds of laughter shades of life are ringing through my open ears
exciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns
It calls me on.....
dead = alive
happy = good sadness?!?
life = everything
me = needle in the hay stack
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Saturday, March 8, 2008
the words were thickly layered with scorn and menace.
listening to them was like enduring a blistering, hackle-raising tirade.
my first reaction was irritation.
second was fury
third.... i let it go....
resistation at work.
managing impulsivity at work too...
every step every breathe every move, is an eternity
felt like its endless
wild thoughts and adrenalin
sharks swimming through my veins
sighting the crowd and the goal, the ending point.
giving all that i have. catching the rest off guard.
sprinting and screaming
longing for a gasp of air, water and especially the words of encouragement from theee
threw myself on the grass
catching my breath
theeee came with a bottle of water and words which i long for
i treasure it like a cup of champange in the great depression.
may be may be not ?!?
who care
i tried my best
vague enough?
no? yes? ambiguisous! take it!
boo ya!
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Wednesday, March 5, 2008
I've had too much to care, too much to think, too much to decide, too much to determine'
I've left all those quirky stuffs and persue obsessions, reading books and sleeping.
where have i been?
I dont know where to begin....
we'are all looking for something, to take away the pain. (right?)
me, you and my medication (making the best of it)
love is just a chemical creation (will it be permanent?)
synthetic sensations...
this way seems like a right track, may be you can help me find the right path
Is it too much to ask? too much too fast? too much to ignore?
dont know. dont care?
medicine makes me ok!
we're all looking for someone to take away the pain (right?)
so can you feel it?
can you feel it coming down?
you gotta get up!
can you get up off the ground?
can you hear it?
can you hear me screaming?
my determination has gone off limits
persuing the impossible which turns out to be possible...
i'll be running and screaming on friday
hard works never will be futile.
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